Thursday, December 20, 2007

Guess Who??

I'm baaaccckkkkk!!!!!!!!!! Europe was beyond fun, beyond anything I could have imagined.

Sigh, I wish we could have stayed longer.

10 days, 3 cameras, 10GB worth of photos and videos. Thousands and thousands of photos to sift through. It's gonna take forever!!!

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Final Post (For 12 days, anyway!)

Whoopppeee!! And I'm counting down the hours.. 3.5 hours till I board the plane, and I'm feeling really jittery now!

Anywayz, I will be checking email sporadically in Europe, so if there's anything important, any juicy gossip, anything that I should know/would like to know/would be interested to know, please email me at joanne.chan.2004@business.smu.edu.sg or joannetopia@gmail.com.

Oh yeah, in case any of you do not know or have not been informed through the gossip network, I've gotten back together with Fadz.

Once you've gotten over the being incredulous and gasping stage, you would be pleased to know that you are not alone. The number of people who have expressed doubt and incredulity...

All I can say is, I'm happy. The "being friends" bit was utter and complete rubbish. There can be no such thing, and I wasn't mature enough, and I doubt I'd ever be. How the hell do you treat someone whom you loved with all your heart with a distant politeness? So it was either he was in my life the way I wanted, or out of it completed.

The way I see it, did he make a mistake? Yes. But it takes 2 hands to clap. And while I'm not trying to absolve him of all his guilt, I can't lay the demise of our relationship entirely at his doorstep either. People have questioned the trust issue. Yes, it's going to be tough. Sometimes, I find myself questioning his every move suspiciously, but I trust that in time, once we've worked things out, it would be better.

Forgive, I think I have. Forget, that's the bugger of a problem. But like Li Wern says, I should never use this as a missile when we fight next. Lording this over him would probably make things worse. And so I shall not. I'm sure he's thought long and hard about it.

But I simply couldn't let him go. Sure, I'd readily admit that the fear of the unknown was partially responsible for my not letting go. But how could I just let go of the man who is equally comfortable talking to me about religion and the state of the world as he is movies and music? A man who is equally conversant at singing the latest pop lyrics as he is composing original poetry? The same guy who is equally adept at accompanying me to an Andy Warhol exhibition as he is rocking out next to me at a concert? The only guy I know who shares almost ALL my interests and is always up for new experiences?

The same man who resented me as virulently as he did passionately love me.

Such extremes. Never a dull moment, that I can say. So this time, I'm walking in with my eyes wide open. What will be, will be. I suppose all I can ask for is to not be kept in the dark again. Ignorance is my greatest fear.

K lah! It didn't start out as a serious post! Bye! Let's meet up soon, whoever reads this blog and is acquainted with me!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Farewell Singapore, Hello Europe!

Well well well, it seems like that time has finally rolled around.

WE'RE OFF TO GALLIVANT THROUGH EUROPE!!!!! LOOK OUT, HERE COMES THE NUTSIs!

Seriously, wish us luck. What happens when you put 3 super giggly, super loud, super bimbotic females together and throw them in Europe for the 1st time, with no knowledge of their language?

Utter chaos, I suspect.


Paris!



Barcelona!



Rome!


Ohhhhh... who cares if I suck at Finance, have no job when I come back, and am close to penniless right?