Sunday, January 22, 2006

Getting To Know Me


Conscientiousness 2.13
Extraversion 4.25
Agreeableness 3.63
Neuroticism 3.88
Openness to Experience 4.13
Positive Affectivity 3.80
Negative Affectivity 2.90
Achievement 4.00
Concern for Others 8.00
Fairness 2.00
Honesty 10.00
Independence 5.92
Interdependence 4.17


Hmmm, according to this MPW survey, I'm bloody honest (disagree), I care quite a lot about others (agree), I suck at conscientiousness (agree) and I'm not very fair (no comment). Interesting. Not too sure where that leaves me, though.

Fadz is leaving for Thailand soon. Meaning he'd be gone the whole month of February and miss Valentine's Day. Yes, I like the cheesiness of receiving flowers, chocolates and eating a nice meal with my beloved. But this year, I'm all alone. That sucks, sucks, sucks. I want the commercialised holiday. I want the overhyped emotions and gestures of love. I want it all. Above all, I want to Fadz.

Fuck it, this year, I'm staying at home and eating all the Ben and Jerry's ice cream I can cram in and sulk the night away while watching Wwhen Harry Met Sally, or Pretty Woman or some other stupid romantic comedy. Who wants to join me?

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Another Horrible Week

Sigh, we lost our first match against SIM. Didn't get to play, so got bench splinters up my ass... But it was equally agonizing to be watching from the sides.

We were up 5 points in the first set, and could have won, but the team just kinda fizzled out and as the other team became more confident, our confidence just dissipated. Yup, lost 3 sets in a row. Our hopes of getting into the semi-finals just flew away... Cos there are 5 teams per group, and we need to win 3 teams to enter the semi-finals. SP is in our group and they are the undisputed best. We were hoping to win the rest cos they're not that fantastic. Looks like the biggest losers will be us.

And I just received a disturbing email from a member of Ventures. A long, long time ago (think 6 months), this guy JS emailed everyone in Ventures asking if we were interested in buying as a group this internet marketing kit. It supposedly contained millions of tips to help you turn your internet site into a money-making tool. Emails were sent back and forth, and in a show of support (I was still enthusiastic about Ventures), I agreed to be a part of the buying group.

However, after a month, it became apparent that only 4 people (JS included) were interested. That meant $150 each person. Unwilling to pay such a cost, we asked JS if perhaps we should ask more people to join in the buying so that we wouldn't need to pay so much each person.

JS never replied. We figured that was that. A few months later, JS emailed the 4 of us and told us the kit had arrived. And he asked for payment. We were all like, WTF???? Why didn't he ask us for confirmation before rushing off to buy the kit?

We hemmed and hawed, and because he couldn't get the DVDs and CDs copied due to special protection programs, we thought the issue was dropped. Unfortunately, I stupidly accepted the notes that he photocopied from the books. But I didn't even look through it; it's still stuck untouched in my locker 6 months later.

Now, I just received an email from JS telling me to collect the DVDs and he even included his bank account number. I'm totally seeing red. How can he be so stupid? I'm absolutely disgusted with the way he handled everything and he stopped hounding this other girl, but I'm still being targeted. Why, why, why?

Asshole. I didn't want to escalate the problem, but I've just fired off an email scolding him. Ok, I agreed to pay for the photocopying of the book and even offered to give him back to the photocopied items. let's see what he says.

See, this is why I quit Ventures. Everyone is a complete fucked up, subhuman entity. Bah.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

First Week Of School Was...
Traumatizing. Really, the workload seems to have tripled, class is even more boring than usual... and I'm growing old. Ugh, what a great way to start the week.

Let's see, what new year resolutions to make? I resolve to...

1) Spend less money. Being in a city campus does not give me the right to spend copious amounts of money on clothes and food. Even if the school's Kopitiam sucks. And even if Mango is having 70% off sale.

2) To study for my tests and do my projects dilligently. No more last minute work. And if I'm stuck with stupid group mates, I strive to not let anyone cow over me.

3) I will speak up more in class. No more shilly-shallying. Just because it's 10% of the whole grade does not mean I can choose not the participate. Bad, bad attitude.

4) Stop being so bitchy. Must indulge in peace-on-earth attitude. Must extend goodwill towards stupid people who can't string one intelligent thought together. Whoops! Bad habits die hard. Teeheehee.

Sigh, all the resolutions look so good in words, but seem impossible to accomplish, especially the last one. How not to bitch? It comes so naturally and there are always bad influences around! Besides, is it really my fault if I find someone stupid and point it out? Not as if I'm trying to be some diplomat....

Oh yeah, just a random thought. Witnessed (with horror) the mating of 2 cats. The bull cat clamped his legs around the poor female, rubbed himself against her body to get aroused, and then went in for the kill. And then was out 2 seconds later. *snort* I just think a lot of men are like that. In and out. And the bull cat promptly fell asleep after that. Even more typical behaviour. See, men ARE like beasts. Short, Sweet (for the guy) and Sleep.