Sunday, October 31, 2004

Mushy Time!

Mushy Time!
Awww... my baby's ill with the deathly flu and fever... and yet he struggled to go out with me yesterday just so that he could meet me.... while it makes me really happy that he wants to see me so much, it breaks my heart to see him struggling just to stop his nose from leaking. and his fever was driving him delirious... sighh... wish i could have done more.
it sucks to see someone you love in so much agony. really, it does. not only does he have to fast and go outfield, but now that his body is wrecked with illness.. i dunno if he can take it... the stupid doctor only gave him one day of mc. urgh... and yet they give stupid creeps who burn their hands with joss sticks to look like chicken pox full mc. morons. that's what the world is coming to.
but on a happier note... i'm really, really happy that after all this time, my heart still sings when im with him, my belly still does flip-flops when he kisses me. awww.... isn't that really puke-inducing for anyone not crazily in love?
oh yeah, my thoughts are flying everywhere... we were eating dinner at sanur last night. so there we were.. the first customer at sanur, and feeling really hungry. (since i was with him, i felt bad eating or drinking, so therefore a semi-fast) and since i'm obviously freaking chinese, i guess they mistook fadz for non-malay and didn't know that we were only gonna eat when the time came to break fast. so they brought out all of our food and we sat there like idiots while the food turned cold. hahaha.. some experience. we had to wait for 20 minutes can! anyway, i distracted fadz (and myself) by playing stupid games... hehehe... every day is a new experience with my dearie...
i'm in a sentimental mood tonight... i just confessed to sylvia how glad i am to have met her all those months ago at CIT, and now i have a friend with me for all my lessons... hahaha... i love the world! please world, love me too and make my baby better!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Whew!

A Reflection
Damn, but i'm beat. Just came home from school an hour ago... urgh... finished with my last presentation for the semester. God, but i was awful! geez, if i could stutter anymore, or show my nervnousness any more, i would have fallen onto the groun in a quivering heap! my voice shook, there were moments of silence... i couldn't get my train of thoughts together. all in all, a great heap of crap. siggghhh...

on my way home, classmate of mine got off at the same bus stop as me. i waved, he walked past me. are people really that self-centred these days? so oblivious to the world that you can walk past a waving object (me)? lol, if i didn't know better, i would have been insulted! but seriously, have we become so self-absorbed, so removed from the world, closeted away in our thoughts, that the world could pass us by and we would not notice? what happened to admiring and soaking up your surroundings?

anyhoo.. moving on to more pleasant thought... i'm going for an award ceremony at shangri-la! tres excited! it's a black tie event.. not really sure what that means for ladies.. hmm.. guess i just have to wing it. Shoes? check. (charles and keith diamonte) hair? check. (wash and blow) make-up? check. (i should be competent enough in that area) dress? hmm.. should i wear my prom dress (ie the black allure one) or buy a new dress? how exciting... cocktails, then a dinner. i hope i don't commit a faus pax, like putting my elbows on the table, or taking too big a bite, or something embarassing like that... hehe, i think i'm the only year 1 going. can't wait!

A New Beginning (2)

A New Beginning (2)

Haha, ok, this is the "official opening" of my new blog. After the tweaking, the trial and errors, changing a pic here, improving a link there... my oh my, now i know why people can get hooked on creating blog skins! To see something tangible form out of nothing, to see the fruit of all the time and effort put into creating your perfect blog skin... haha... i think more people are interested in creating blog skins then actually writing them!
hmm... well, that sure took up some time... urgh, just thinking about going back to my Analytical Skills homework is bugging me... so, i shall take some time and type up a new blog entry...
i've been speaking to a couple of fellow students at SMU and there's this disturbing trend that i'm discovering. Now, we all know that SMU is famous for it's numerous projects and high amounts of participation in class. In fact, these points were emphasized when we went for the interview. So everyone coming here should have full knowledge of what to expect. However, i see a large proportion of people who dislike to speak up in class, to the extent that 11 weeks into the school term, you can count their participation on one hand.
Ok, so i bitch endlessly about the projects that i have to do. but frankly, i much prefer doing projects than studying. it's only because i have so many projects and yet have a substantial amount of work to study and do; hence the bitching.
And i just heard that an SMU scholar is breaking her scholarship and going to study at NTU. Why? Most probably cos she cannot take the teaching methods of SMU. sheesh... sometimes, i really question the intellect and judgement of my fellow schoolmates. If you didn't want to do all these things (ie participate in class, projects) then why the heck did you choose SMU which is FAMOUS for such demands?


A New Beginning

A New Beginning

Xanga was annoying me. Everything that i wanted to do included payment. Now why the heck would i voluntarily pay for something when there is always a free alternative? So here i am, a brand new beginning, with my new blog!

I found this utter fab blog skin, and since i was sick of doing my homework, here i am, typing this entry which has utterly no meaning or use. haha... just testing my new blog really, how it looks, how it works...

anyhoo, if you're interested in my past entries, check them out at http://www.xanga.com/crazy_gem

A part of my old life has closed.. and a new one begins! Isn't every chapter of life like this?